I don't know if anyone still reads this blog anymore, hell I forget about it and I feel like all of the exciting stuff has come and gone, but I'm going to update it anyway.
So less than two weeks from today I will be flying home to America. I can't believe my semester abroad is almost done. I honestly don't know where it all went; I feel like I just stepped off plane from France and into Rabat, confused and jetlagged, a little unsure about everything in this strange country, afraid to eat the food, and not knowing a word of Darija.
And now I've tried so many new foods that it takes a lot to phase me. I've experienced being sick more times in the past 3 months than since I started college two and a half years ago. I lived with a family that on a good day, I can have a successful 5 minute max conversation in French with, and who thinks it's weird that I want to shower every day. Sometimes I feel like a completely different person because I have lived a completely different lifestyle for three and almost a half months. Being surrounded by a Muslim community has taught me that people are people, and that doesn't change wherever you go in the world. I feel like I can confidently travel anywhere now...well except maybe other less developed parts of Africa.
I just hope I don't forget what it was like, leaving behind the comforts of a first world country, and being entirely pushed out of my comfort zone for a few months.
I don't want to forget the way I felt on Eid, when I witnessed my host family slaughter two sheep for a sacrifice, and how that was the first time I truly felt culture shock and honestly didn't know what to say when my host mom asked me what I thought of the holiday.
I don't want to forget that first lunch with my host family in Fes with my roommate, where nobody said a word during the entire meal, I wanted to just burst out crying because it was all so weird and foreign to me, and I probably ate about 5 bites of food and then said I was full, just because I was so scared of getting sick from food that I had never heard of in my life.
I don't want to forget my day of learning Darija and having absolutely no idea what was going on, and feeling stupider than I ever have in my entire life.
I don't want to forget the first time I bartered successfully in the old medina, and got a 400 dirham rug for 300 dirhams.
I don't want to forget how me and my friends became friends with some hanut owners and how they always laugh at our attempts to speak Amazight and count from 1 to 5. Sometimes 1 to 10, for my friend. I don't quite have that down yet.
But then I think about America, about being able to eat soooo much food, driving my car, seeing my friends and family, and living a truly free life, and I get beyond ecstatic.
I think about how much I've changed this semester, how many places I've visited, how many different people I've met, and you know, I think it's time to go back to America.
So less than two weeks from today I will be flying home to America. I can't believe my semester abroad is almost done. I honestly don't know where it all went; I feel like I just stepped off plane from France and into Rabat, confused and jetlagged, a little unsure about everything in this strange country, afraid to eat the food, and not knowing a word of Darija.
And now I've tried so many new foods that it takes a lot to phase me. I've experienced being sick more times in the past 3 months than since I started college two and a half years ago. I lived with a family that on a good day, I can have a successful 5 minute max conversation in French with, and who thinks it's weird that I want to shower every day. Sometimes I feel like a completely different person because I have lived a completely different lifestyle for three and almost a half months. Being surrounded by a Muslim community has taught me that people are people, and that doesn't change wherever you go in the world. I feel like I can confidently travel anywhere now...well except maybe other less developed parts of Africa.
I just hope I don't forget what it was like, leaving behind the comforts of a first world country, and being entirely pushed out of my comfort zone for a few months.
I don't want to forget the way I felt on Eid, when I witnessed my host family slaughter two sheep for a sacrifice, and how that was the first time I truly felt culture shock and honestly didn't know what to say when my host mom asked me what I thought of the holiday.
I don't want to forget that first lunch with my host family in Fes with my roommate, where nobody said a word during the entire meal, I wanted to just burst out crying because it was all so weird and foreign to me, and I probably ate about 5 bites of food and then said I was full, just because I was so scared of getting sick from food that I had never heard of in my life.
I don't want to forget my day of learning Darija and having absolutely no idea what was going on, and feeling stupider than I ever have in my entire life.
I don't want to forget the first time I bartered successfully in the old medina, and got a 400 dirham rug for 300 dirhams.
I don't want to forget how me and my friends became friends with some hanut owners and how they always laugh at our attempts to speak Amazight and count from 1 to 5. Sometimes 1 to 10, for my friend. I don't quite have that down yet.
But then I think about America, about being able to eat soooo much food, driving my car, seeing my friends and family, and living a truly free life, and I get beyond ecstatic.
I think about how much I've changed this semester, how many places I've visited, how many different people I've met, and you know, I think it's time to go back to America.